Epilog

 

I am the bird that rose from deep,
The wind that wandered land in sweep.
My soul emerges from the sea,
Climbing toward eternity.

With steadfast heart, I keep my flight,
Forever bound to heaven’s light.

Aug 1995

Whispers

Alone, in whispers, 
I implore the sea,
Each wave draws 
Closer, endlessly,

To bring you back 
Along its path,
As love and longing 
Chase your wrath.

For you to know, 
In thought’s deep port,
I pace the docks, 
Lost in resort,

Like a bird 
On a distant shore,
Awaiting fate, 
With hope no more.

And as the rain 
From dark clouds falls,
Draping the earth 
In shadowed walls,

I feel the cold 
Of loneliness spread,
An empty life 
Where joy has fled.

For I, like a lark, 
Have broken flight,
With wings now lost 
In endless night.

Aug 1995

The quiet pond

 

The sun now fades beyond the crest,
The day falls gently into shade,
The willows dream and sing their best,
Their branches in the pond displayed.

The pond lies frozen, still beneath,
The moon’s soft glow, a silver crown,
It weaves from skies of quiet peace,
With reeds and ripples settled down.

On hilltops high, the deer stand tall,
They gaze in wonder toward the sky,
While near the shore, where shadows fall,
The birds sing soft as night drifts by.

I bow my tear-stained face in prayer,
And sweet old memories flood my mind,
Like whispered hymns upon the air,
That cradle you in dreams, entwined.

Aug 1995

 

The Castaway

In the vast sea, on an empty shore,
A castaway lives lost evermore.
For how long now? He’s lost all track,
Nor knows the storm that pulled him back.

He sailed with Love on waves so free,
Till storms stole her away from sea.
Since then, he’s left the world behind,
On this forsaken isle confined.

Though Love has died, her light gone dim,
He waits, still hoping, calling grim.
He speaks to her, he cries her name,
From cliffs he shouts, his heart aflame.

A ship appears, its sails unfurled,
To take him back into the world.
Yet without Love, his heart won’t flee,
And on that ship, he'll never be.

02.04.1995

03:30

A star is gone

 

Gazing into the night's embrace, 
I noticed a star was gone. 
Your whispers too had left no trace, 
Taking my love along. 
To another galaxy you've flown, 
Leaving darkness here alone.

28.03.1995
08:50

Today, about yesterday

It rains and snows in tangled flight,
Nothing on Earth feels clear or right.
Your love was just as hard to see,
It left behind deep agony.

You wandered paths that you could find,
Disappearing down streets left behind.
You left me here, silent and worn,
Like a tree that stands alone, forlorn.

When we counted love’s petals, bright,
You tore the flower with bitter might.
What once was pure, you cast away,
And left it wilting in decay.

In the fog of endless time,
Only my heart hears the chime,
Looking back at days long passed,
When we were two, but could not last.

27.03.1995

The phone

 

 

I stand unmoved beside the phone,
Its silence cuts me to the bone.
I wait and hope without a sound,
To kiss your voice when it comes 'round.

The seconds drip like melting wax,
The moonlight knocks upon the pane,
The rose begins to fade to black,
And still, the phone stays cold and plain.

I gaze upon its lifeless frame,
Wishing it would speak your name.
But I rise up, and walk away—
It will not ring for me today.

23.03.1995
12:45

A lost world

Why, my love, is there such hate,
So much injustice in the air?
Why does deceit so dominate,
I cannot grasp it nor compare.

We, who walk life's fleeting beam,
Like wild beasts roam upon the land,
We vanish like the morning dew,
Without belief, without a stand.

In this world so quickly fading,
To save love's light from dimming low,
A thousand butterflies take wing,
Yet perish too, like all below.

What can we do, with none to guide,
Where does our love now truly lie?
It seems forever lost, denied,
An eternal silence in the sky.

21.03.1995
16:45

Let it snow

Let flowers fall on us like snow,
Beneath the sky so bright and warm,
May love’s sweet shivers softly grow,
As you gaze at me, so calm, so pure.

Let stars rain down from heaven’s height,
From countless suns that brightly gleam,
With suns and planets shining bright,
In a snowfall, Earth has never seen.

Let it snow on us, like fairy tales,
With flakes of silver, gold’s embrace,
I’ll read love’s secrets, soft and slow,
By the glowing embers' warm embrace.

12.03.1995,

Larion

 

Talking with the Sun

Why do you gaze at me from far,
Through smoky clouds that dim the sky?
Come, let us talk beneath the stars,
But not as children passing by!

You, with your glow so bright and true,
Bring back the light my soul once knew.
Fill my heart with joy once more,
Like trumpets' sound in days of yore!

How grand it’d be if now you’d shine,
And light my path with love again,
To walk that road where once was mine,
With her, my love, who held no end!

11.03.1995
18:45

Come back, my love!

From distant yesterdays, a cry
Echoes where the deserts lie.
A heart alone, concealed within,
A soul that once was full of life and sin.

It races through the shifting sand,
Not knowing where to make a stand.
In frantic steps, it shouts the plea,
"Come back, return, my love, to me!"

Overwhelmed by all it feels,
By memories that time conceals,
It longs to say a last goodbye,
One wish among the stars that die.

10.03.1995
20:10

Nothing

The ghost of love, pure and bright,
A passion that held us close at night,
Now lost within the mists of time,
And with it, your trace, no longer mine.

Hundreds of searches, all in vain,
And smoky thoughts that cloud my brain.
Bold attempts, a reckless chase,
But childish games we can’t retrace.

I tried with all my strength to find,
A way to bring you back, rewind.
But now I see, the truth is clear,
The beautiful game we played is gone, my dear.
 
26.02.1995
8:30

The lost train station

 

There still exists, my love, today,
A station lost in hellish lands,
No train has passed along that way,
No wheels have touched those rusted bands.

The rails now slowly turn to rust,
Untouched by any passing wheels,
The wooden ties begin to dust,
A place where time no longer heals.

Once, a train would always stay,
For two lovers, hand in hand,
It carried them so far away,
The happiest across the land.

But now it stands a ruined place,
Where only whispers haunt the air,
The wind howls through its empty space,
Beneath a dim and distant glare.
 
25.02.1995
9:15

Chance encounter

 

I greet you, love, with open heart,
Hoping you'll stay, yet see you rush.
Why do you seem so full of haste,
And why does your face carry such a flush?

Perhaps you run to meet someone,
I won’t delay you from your way.
I have so much I’d like to say,
But now’s not right, perhaps one day.

I’ll let you go and carry on,
I’d hate to cause you any harm.
Perhaps your lover waits ahead,
As I once did, with open arms.

Goodbye, my love, until we meet,
Perhaps beneath a different sky.
We’ll share our thoughts over coffee warm,
Of what has passed, and what’s to fly.

18.02.1995
09:55

Dreaming

Two stars slept on a leaf so bright,
Like silver tears in gentle light.
Beside them, I was lost in dreams,
Of kissing you, in tender streams.

I dreamed of a small patch of sky,
As clear as the gaze in your eye,
That softly drifted far away,
And took your love from me that day.

The sky tore you from my embrace,
And carried you to distant lands.
You left without a single trace,
And now the night, alone, expands.
 
09.02.1995
16:30

I wish

I wish for you to come tonight,
To gift me with the scent of your kiss,
To turn my heart to blooming spring,
And plant within it love's sweet bliss.
I wish for you to come tonight,
For us to be as one again,
To watch the doves take flight above,
And kiss beneath the moon's soft rain.

30.01.1995
20:30

In the night

The sunset found me lost in thought,
Dreaming of you in silent grace.
Alone I stand, this field is wide,
Amidst the poppies’ sweet embrace.

The stars light up one by one,
The moon now rises from afar.
My thoughts take flight to where you are,
Whispering how strong my feelings are.

The night moves on, yet you’re not near,
I wait for you, still standing there.
Like a lamb, I roam the fields in glee,
Searching for a flower to offer thee.

28.01.1995
15:30

The sorrowed place

The bench where we once shared a kiss,
Is rusted now, a lonely place.
No one has sat or felt its bliss,
No soul has walked that empty space.

The tree beneath which love was born,
Has never bloomed again since then.
The ground around it stands forlorn,
Avoided by both beasts and men.

And yet I pass by now and then,
To stir those memories inside,
Of promises we made back when,
With hearts so full and eyes so wide.

27.01.1995
05:05

Conclusion

In vain a man still carries on,
When all he loved is dead and gone.
He withers like a lonely tree,
Rooted in a barren sea.

No fruit will come, no leaves remain,
All hope has vanished, lost in pain.
You'll never see his bloom again,
For in his soul, there's no refrain.

No one can bring him back to light,
Or make him whole, restore his fight.
And you, you’ll never turn around,
For such a step would be unsound.

24.01.1995

02:15

A moment

A tear can signify deep pain,
More tears and suffering will reign.
Yet silence holds a fleeting grace,
When victory you can embrace.

A moment spent in solitude,
Feels like a fiery interlude.
A station in a barren land,
Where no train stops, nor tracks expand.

20.01.1995

18:05

The night watch stands

The wind blows very cold,
My body’s numb, the earth turned stone,
For one long hour, I’ve taken hold,
In frost and silence, all alone.

The sky is clear, a glassy blue,
The moon above, it gently smiles,
The stars, they whisper soft and true,
While wind sings on for miles and miles.

The frozen trees, they creak and sway,
As wind cuts through with icy force,
Even wolves have lost their way,
For frost now reigns in full, of course.

I stand alone, my lonely post,
With fleeting glances, lost in thought,
Caught by a longing, a maddened ghost,
For love once found, then long forgot.

I slowly start to forget the chill,
And drift into a dreamy state,
I feel so small, yet filled with will,
A heart so wide, it challenges fate.

The morning star begins to rise,
It guides me softly through the dark,
Upon the horizon, it climbs the skies,
For us, it shines, a brightening spark.
 
18.01.1995
04.00

Thinking of you

 

The wind blows, it howls and cries,
The trees stand bare beneath the skies.
So many suffer just like me,
Who once loved with hearts set free.

It’s cold outside, the clouds hang low,
Frost commands the empty glow.
An hour now I've stood my post,
As night descends, a silent ghost.

Another night spent lost in thought,
Of only you and all I’ve sought.
Another night where I still yearn,
For you beside me, your return.

Alone I stand, the bridge is still,
I long for you, my love, I will.
You do not know if I exist,
Or the lonely road my feet have kissed.

17.01.1995
23:30

In the barracks' dormitory

Seeing you

I gaze upon your window bright,
When the world feels warm and near.
I whisper, “I’ll love you for all my life,”
But no one seems to hear.

You move so softly through your space,
Yet somehow find no peace.
With graceful steps and quiet grace,
You were my fleeting piece.

Now you brush your flowing hair,
Push it gently back with care.
And I, with longing in my heart,
Watch you, leaning from afar.

You turn and flick the switch to night,
The light fades from the room.
You lie in bed, so soft and still,
While I dream of my life in gloom.

17.01.1995
20:40
In the barracks

Lost

When autumn’s end was drawing near,
And leaves turned gold and fell away,
The date approached, a silent tear—
The day you left, and couldn't stay.

Was it a dream from which I woke,
Crying, love, without a sound?
Or was it a test, a cruel joke,
One I failed, and broke unbound?

But why a test, when love was true?
You left a wound that won’t run dry,
A scar that bleeds with every hue,
Under the fading autumn sky.

17.01.1995
05:30

In the train, From Buzau to Adjud

In vein

 

In the blue night, you fade away,
With gentle steps, you slip astray.
I search for you, but all in vain,
A silent chase through endless pain.

When soft winds stir the trees and homes,
Know that I'm coming, though time still roams.
But time divides, it holds us far,
Like distant echoes from a star.

I start my journey through the night,
Forever seeking your lost light.
I think of you, look all around,
But only strangers can be found.

Their puzzled stares, as I await,
For you, who left without a trace.

11.12.1994
17:30